My first treatment, that is Radiotherapy, was on 5 June 2012. It was so uncomfortable and I hated it. My husband told me that I needed to get used to it. I said, it's not something that I want to get used to. I never did up till the last day of treatment on 20 July 2012.
It has been quite stable lately, Alhamdulillah. Even the grommets have not dropped since its insertions in October. Not that I want them to! Though from the last two check-ups, one of it has moved from where it should be. I hope it stays put for as long as it can or at least until after I fly back home from holidays in April. But we can only hope, Insyaallah.
I still have those thick mucus in the morning. I try my best not to catch flu or any infections, because then my sinus gets inflamed and them mucus are even more thicker also sometimes bloody. Since the lining of my nose is dry now, it gets cut easily especially in dry weather. Once, I had a cut with bad infection even the GP was shocked I had like a boil in the nose. Ewww! But yeah, that's the first for me too. Hope that's it but I have to remember to keep it moist when it gets too dry.
I think, I'm at the stage where I know my post-cancer body better. So I'm less anxious and know what to do, treat or care for it. I'm more positive too when I go for check-ups and expects the usual 'everything looks good and there's nothing to worry about'. Alhamdulillah. I feel stronger but I know when to take it slow. I feel fine but I guess I'm still scarred, physically and mentally. Changed. Everything feels almost normal now. Except probably, the quarterly check-ups.
I like where I am now. I don't remember much of the pain and how hard it was. Good, I guess. But I don't want to forget. How much I don't want to go through it again, I also think, I want to be somewhat prepared if it happens again. That isn't positive, isn't it? Sometimes. Most times, I don't even think that I had cancer.
Cancer is not me. I am actually Libra-n. :)
These writings and blog, is my personal health reference and hopefully will help them in need.
